No One

   It's very hard being single when you want to be in a relationship. You delude your heart and soul into think that being single isn't so bad. Your deceiving words try to take root but the loneliness in the soil rejects that seed. If those words did bloom everything you do, every activity you attend, every family function you go to as a single person wouldn't matter so much. I guess my soil hasn't rid itself of lonliness yet and I really haven't reached that point. Even though, as I said above, I try to delude my heart and soul otherwise. It hurts.
   What adds more hurt is seeing cousins, siblings, and friends younger than myself in relationships, getting married, or having children. Stab to the dream, the foremost dream, of having a family. Each stab weakens the wall surrounding that dream and one day it will be no more. I take some comfort in the knowledge that I have nephews and nieces. Is it the same? No. I don't think anyone could argue that point. Though, I love them dearly.
   Let's throw another hurt on the pile. The question, nonverbal or verbally said, of "What is wrong with you?" You may gasp, and I am sure you did, that someone actually saying this but it has been said to me countless times. Stab!! The answer is nothing. Absolutely Nothing! Though, I have had some point out exactly what those are. I have my faults, who doesn't, I know them well enough and am taking steps to improve myself.  But, perhaps, it is my exterior, or my shyness around men, or my standards (which I have been told are too high), or my ideas on marriage, or the characteristics of husband I am looking for. Am I the only one? 
    So why am I not married? I haven't a clue.
   On a particular depressing day I was listening to  Kristen Bell sing "Do You Want to Build a Snowman" from Disney's Frozen, I opened a new doc in Wordperfect and began to write. The music moved me and, from it, this poem came to life.
Happy Writing!!! Keep Writing!!! And let the inspiration flow!!!

No One

Is there no one that will love me?

Is there no one to seize my hand?

I can’t do this anymore.

I should just close the door

And let no one ever in.

Is there no one that will love me?

Is there no one that’ll even try?

Can’t they see beyond this form

Is a passionate storm?

Their turned gaze cannot grasp it.

Is there no one that will love me?

Is there no one to claim my heart?

I can’t do this anymore.

Shrivel up at the core

Vibrance never beats again.

Is there no one that will love me?

Is there no one that’ll even try?

Can’t they hear past this silence

 a warrior’s resonance?

Their shallow ears cannot hear.

Is there no one that will love me?

Is there no one to dry my tears?

I can’t do this anymore.

Let them fall to the floor

The Dreams break over again.

Is there no one that will love me?

Is there no one that’ll even try?

Can’t they glimpse beneath this face

Is rich intricate lace?

Their frail spirits cannot feel.

Is there no one that will love me?

Is there no one to catch my soul?

I can’t do this anymore.

Will set it free to soar

Far beyond the scattered stars.

Is there no one that will love me?

Is there no one that’ll even try?

Can’t they see a fire’s alive

Behind these hazel eyes?

 Their icy grip to quench it.

Is there no one that will love me?

Is there no one that’ll try?

No, there is no one...